I can’t believe my little girl is 16 Months old today. It goes very quickly, I remember those 1st 6 months
begging, praying she would get to this stage, praying she would sleep, eat and not projectile vomit everywhere. At least most of those things are nearly there.
I have never shared this on the blog before but it’s difficult being a Mama to Addison, I hate the fact I miss out on so much, I have worked 4 days a week since she was 3 weeks old. It’s hard knowing how to bring up a “normal” child, she is like my first-born all over again.
I hate the fact I feel Addison misses out due to having a disabled brother, she doesn’t get to go to the park, or Mummy & Baby groups, her life is complicated, she will never know any different but as a parent we always feel guilt.
But amongst all my angst my little girl is Amazing, she learns things so quickly, her communication is still hard and she has tantrums to rival a teenager, but she is such a comic and I feel she may end up being a scientist or mechanic, she pulls apart items and rebuilds them with ease, but not before inspecting how they are put together in the 1st place.
She is my world, I love her more than I knew possible, she is what being a parent is all about, she is a brave, determined and will be the most accepting child, she loves her brother, she copes well that his needs already at times are more than hers.
All in All she is Addison, there are certainly difficult days, days where I lock myself in a room and want to scream but I wouldn’t change her for the world.