Living Life For Me

Life is for living. It’s a cliche but true.

I am a pleaser. Always looking to make everyone happy, to make people like me.

But why?

You can’t make people like you. Even with the kindest heart.
People should like you for you. Something I have always known to be true but ignored. For fear of being alone or unloved, I think.

But I am not alone. I have four people in my home who need and want me every day and that is what is most important. Even if sometimes it is the most terrifying feeling.

That is what life is living for.

But even more than that I need to live for me.

To make me smile, to make me happy, to enjoy experiences for me.

We all do it at some point, stop living for us, it’s very easily done as a Mum. But we shouldn’t. We shouldn’t feel guilty for wanting things/time and experiences for us.

Life isn’t easy, my life certainly is not. I have spent the past few years allowing pain to control me, to allow depression and anxiety to decide my fate.
But I need to change that. I need to regain some control, to stop painting my smile on and smile big.

It will be a journey. By no means an easy one. I will be knocked down, but I will get back up and try again.

You will bear witness here, my little corner of the world, a corner that has been mine for 10 years. Dealing with all my little pieces of me.

Opening a new door to a new chapter

I will live new experiences, make some dreams happen. Some alone, some for Kara, not a Mum or a wife, just a little girl locked into an ageing body.
Some will be for my Husband and I. Reconnecting, finding our relationship as it grows through hard times onto better times.
And some for my family, those three little people who tire my body and my brain. But also made me the most important part of who my being is.

Life really is for living – cliche or not!
How do you want to live yours?

About Innocent Charms Chats

Kara Janelle, Plus Size Blogging Mama. Vintage Lover, Interiors Obsessed, Chair Crazed, Collector of Much remembering to Smile as it is the 2nd best thing you can do with your mouth.

  • Ashley Spencer

    Love you xxx

  • Alex

    I get what you mean, having suffered before I know how it feels… Life feels too much, but having Hannah’s support was the difference… It’s good you have a beautiful family there to catch you xxx

  • Always remember that you have a wonderful husband and children. We can only keep living our lives and achieving better for ourselves, as well as looking after ourselves too xx

  • Sonia

    Good luck with your new chapter lovely. I look forward to following your journey! Always here for you if you need someone xxx

  • Life Daily

    Yes lovely lady! You are entitled and MEANT to have a life you’re happy in, you go out there and grab every single opportunity you can and run with it!

    You have an amazing little family, great friends and a brilliant squad behind you. We all love ya! x

  • I love this post, you should and you deserve it and it’ll only benefit those around you.
    You’ve got this and when you haven’t I promise we have your back! xx

  • Great post Kara, you totally deserve to take some time for you. I too have come to this realisation, I have spent so many years trying to make everyone else happy and being the superwoman of the house I was making myself unhappy because I was starting to feel envious that everyone else was doing what they wanted but I didn’t have time (or energy) to do the things that I wanted. As you know I have now joined the gym and I am LOVING it! Having time completely to myself again feels amazing, I hurt like hell but it’s a good pain because I know that it’s for the good of me. We can do this lovely lady and we know that we are there to keep each other going xxxx