Trying to find a shining light through the dark clouds has been hard these past few months. But friendship and positivity is what will see me through.
I reminded myself of a post I wrote back at the end of 2014, talking of the wise words a great friend gave me, why am I struggling to regain control, why can I not achieve what I promised myself I would ?
I am admitting defeat, life needs to change and it is time I really do take control.
I have seen my doctor, my health issues have become very bad and he agreed so many referrals are in place, I have spoken to my rock (Ashley) time after time and he knows I am in a dark place and I know with his help and some close friends I will come out of it.
I wasn’t sure of that months ago, but now I am, having Ashley and some truly amazing, genuine friends in my life for the first time I think ever I will get there.
Today I am starting again, I am going to start my lists, lists are my way of getting control and I am going to tick things off. I am going to create happy memories.
I am going to see the light, I am going to be realistic and stop hoping for miracles. Small steps.
And receiving messages like this today means I know I have people to help me get there. Love you my dear friends.