Raising A Superhero // The Day Had To Come

Thank you Addison…

….for being such a sweet soul, for loving your brother more than I can write in words.

Thank you for making me cry in the dark, even though you didn’t realise, for you not believing any different.

I am so sorry we are going to fail you, I am sorry your dreams will not come true, that those simple thoughts are not achievable.

Grayson turns 7 on January 4th, there are times we never thought we wouldn’t be lucky enough to spend 7 years with him, there were times we did not know that your 7th birthday would not include toys, parties and annoyance at your siblings. But that given right was taken from him before he was born.

special needs siblings

Grayson…

…Your sister does not understand, as we chatted in the car she said how you are going to be a big boy now, which means it is time for your big boy toys, she is sure you would love Rubbers & Pencil case and of course a football as you are going to play together now you will be a big boy!

It was single handily the most beautiful and upsetting moment as a Mummy so far.
Hearing the excitement in your sister’s voice was just so…..
Your Daddo knew, he was feeling the same pang and in the darkness he held my hand and as I sobbed silently he chatted and listened. He heard how she described her reality, an untrue one, he was strong.

I wasn’t, I couldn’t even run away, part of me wanted to, another to scream so loud to whoever chose to give us this life, to take away from you all. A relationship that can not be, experiences you will never get to know. It really is not fair!

I am lucky, that I created 3 beautiful children, not just on the outside, but your hearts, the love, I am thankful. I just wish I could make those dreams come true!!!!

Love you babies.

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Kara Janelle, Plus Size Blogging Mama. Vintage Lover, Interiors Obsessed, Chair Crazed, Collector of Much remembering to Smile as it is the 2nd best thing you can do with your mouth.

  • Oh lovely how difficult that must have been to hear. Love you all & you’re all amazing x

  • Donna Wishart

    But Kara, their relationship will always be beyond anything any of us can ever imagine. They love each other fiercly and although Grayson will never have the toys and things that his age dictates he will always have siblings who adore him, who understand him and who love him unconditionally. When you have that, who needs toys? Stay strong lovely, you are such an incredible mother and person x

    • You are so right. I am just so frightened for her disappointment. I really thought she understood he will never get better.
      I feel sad she will never experience her dreams. The happiness in her voice was so beautiful.
      TY for such lovely words xx

  • You created three beautiful souls, three incredibly powerful little people. Gman, defying all medical odds, Addision a heart far older than her years and a gorgeous soul to match and D oh cheeky D, the little dude that will always have everyone smiling with his cheeky grin.

    You have a right to feel how you do, it’s awful, so very awful how cards are dealt. But know that you have people who care for you when you need us.

  • Love you. xx

  • Oh darling xxxx

  • Oh so hard to hear. She’s still so young, she’ll understand more as she gets older, and her dreams and understanding will change. But the 3 of them will still love each other so much as siblings.