Well that was a better week! I am not sure I can put down in words what happened with Grayson and how it effected Ashley and I, I really thought I had lost my son again, it has happened once before and although 3 years ago I still have not come to terms with it, so when the thought of loosing yet another part of his personality, what makes him – him I was honestly terrified.
The only saving grace is that we now have an emergency apt this Thursday with his Neuro team in London as we believe it maybe epilepsy related.
Grayson – Oh to have this smile return, you had put so much fear into my heart, I know you did not mean to but my baby I am always here to help and protect you as best as I can. You have been such a good boy these past days, eating like a trooper, smiling at your favourite Mickey and even for the first time in a year allowing me a kiss! Thanks you.
Addison – You are growing so quickly, I am so sad for how much fear you seem to be experiencing, but I am sure with time we will learn to control it. I love spending time with you one on one, the little things you say, agreeing I am your best friend. Saturday we ran some errands and found this duck pond, your love of animals is beautiful and we could not walk past and leave the ducks hungry. I promise we shall return their many times over the next months to see your happiness.
Deacon – How you love to spend time with people one on one, you are an altogether different child for everyone except me. I loved so much receiving this picture of you and Granny baking, you were a total trooper, I knew you had part of me in you. You have been so funny trying to learn new words this week, of course words you need are just boring, instead you have learnt, Tooshie, disaster and choo choo, everything else just isn’t as fun.
As with each week of my children’s tales I am linking up to the very awesome Living Arrows project go see some seriously amazing talent and don’t miss out.