This is Why

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I hate times like tonight. When I cry for being happy and sad at the same time. I hate that people tell me they know better than me. They are wrong. I put to them how they could have sat in my living room this evening and disagree with my decision.

Tonight I watched as Addison giggled and jumped around trying to play with her brother, as most siblings do. It was the cutest thing I have ever seen in my life, she was like a little puppy with a bone, who after nearly 10 minutes finally admitted defeat, as the bone aka Grayson did not respond, apart from shying away. I watched as Addy couldn’t understand why, she is too young to explain too. That day will come.

So when people frequently these past months make apparent their views on why I should not try for another baby I put to you why should Addison feel like an only child, why should I as a parent watch and feel helpless at times like these.

Your reasons maybe valid, (these are what people keep directing to me – I don’t necessarily agree)

I still have PND
We aren’t financially stable
We have little time already
I am too overweight
We could have another disabled child
We don’t have the room
I couldn’t cope with Addy as a baby

But to name a few, but I believe I am a good Mummy, could I be better, hell yeah, but one thing I argue with anyone is I love my babies, both of them and I want a happy life for us all.
Why should I admit defeat and not have the family I dreamed of because life took an unusual turn for us. This is my life and wrong or right happiness will always be the key.

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Kara Janelle, Plus Size Blogging Mama. Vintage Lover, Interiors Obsessed, Chair Crazed, Collector of Much remembering to Smile as it is the 2nd best thing you can do with your mouth.