>Welcome to the Rollercaster!! – Week 17

>This week The Gallery teamed up with Writing Workshop and the theme set was Emotions.

Some of you already know my life is a Roller coaster of Emotions, although I share what happens regularly I actually most of the time keep my emotions on the situations to myself.

On a day to day basis I look at my little boy and have hate and love mixed together, I don’t think most people can say that and I am not sure if most would admit it, I hate to say it, what type of parent says such a thing ?

My hate is not reflected due to my son, he gives me so much pleasure its unmeasurable, the hate is what is happening to him and the not knowing of why.

My little boy is 18 months, he is still waiting for a formal diagnosis’s if they ever find out, but he has Cerebral Palsy, Global Developmental Delay. Bleed and Cysts on the Brain, Failure to Thrive, Low Muscle tone amongst so many things.
I can not explain what life is like, in so many ways its just normal, but the hospital visits (2/3 week) take a toll on you, but its worth every piece of pain just to see this smile.

My life maybe lonely at times and I have no shoulder to understand but emotions make us whole and if it was not for emotions I am not sure times would be easier.

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Kara Janelle, Plus Size Blogging Mama. Vintage Lover, Interiors Obsessed, Chair Crazed, Collector of Much remembering to Smile as it is the 2nd best thing you can do with your mouth.

  • @jencull (jen)

    >I have a special needs little boy, please email me if you want to chat. Seriously, I would have lost my reason if I didn't have people to talk with. It is so hard to explain what it is like to other parents, but a parent who shares our experiences just knows, without the need for words. It has made a huge difference to me. Jen

  • rosiescribble

    >I am so pleased I have come here. Hang in there my friend. Some of this we went through too with my daughter, we were lucky. She was diagnoses with Global Development Delay (although at first they said Celebral Palsy) and she is great now. I've written our story here:
    http://rosiescribble.typepad.com/rosie-scribble/2010/02/miracle-walker.html

    She has friends with more severe problems yet despite the difficulties they face in life they are happy. I understand how you feel and it is all completely normal and natural. Hugs x

  • Laura

    >Would never say that I know how you feel, but will say that I admire your willingness to live and love just as your circumstances come along. Hugs for you and that very cute boy.

  • Sandrine

    >I've just found your two blogs via Varda, and I can't stop thinking about the cup cakes on the other one. The picture of your boy is wonderful and I can well understand how his smile is worth all the pain. Hang in there. Like Jen and Rosie I too have a boy with special needs and understand the pain and frustrations. Do get in touch too if you need to talk.

  • Baking Mad Mama

    >Oh, he's just gorgeous! I'm so sorry to hear you are having to traipse back and forth to hospital all the time, that must really take its toll. I love your comment about how emotions make us whole – how true.

  • Laura Bray

    >You are the bravest & strongest woman I know. Love you!