Uh Oh It’s all about me again

My lovely friend Sian from Fishfingers4Tea tagged me way back in April to take part in the Guardian Q&A meme, I have had so much going on but finally got around to taking part, apologies Sian for the delay.


Which living person do you most admire, and why?

My Dad for his work ethic, the way he has supported his family and worked so hard, coping with some very difficult times.
When were you happiest ?
When I met my husband Ashley, I had been at the worst point in my life and he lifted me from that.
What was your most embarrassing moment ?
Far too many to remember, I constantly do stupid things, I am sure the time I told my sister in law she was getting a new car when it was supposed to be a surprise is one of them.
Aside from property, what’s the most expensive thing you have ever bought ?
The most expensive thing is my current car, I wish it wasn’t as I don’t even particularly like it but I had to get a big car for Grayson’s equipment.
I wish it was something fun like shoes.
What is your most treasured possession ?
Apart from children of course, it would be my Laurie Lynn doll that I got when I was born.
Where would you like to live ?
Southern Ireland I think, such a pretty place and some lovely people.
What’s your favourite smell ?
Oh toughie, its probably either Baby Powder, Bread Baking or Cinnamon, thank god for Yankee Candles as I get all of them.
Who would play you in the film of your life ?
I have absolutely no idea, I am open to suggestions, it would have to be a big chick cause I am and I wouldn’t like to misrepresent myself.
What is your favourite book ?
This is way too hard to answer, before my babies I would read a minimum of a book a week. I really do enjoy a true story, sadly not very nice ones too, its the sociologist in me.
I must say for some unknown reason I don’t enjoy the classic books like Catcher and the Rye etc. But I do love a lot of Shakespeare.
What is your most unappealing habit ?
Either my untidiness or my clingy-ness, the hubby is always annoyed by the state I leave everywhere I have been and I am sure I would have friends if not for my incessant need to feel needed.
What would be your fancy dress costume of choice ?
It is Betty Boop, I would like to say I have her gorgeous figure alas I do not.
What is your earliest memory ?
It’s when I was about 5/6, both involve my brothers, the 1st the day my baby brother was born in the snow in 1987 and my Mom had to go in an Ambulance, the 2nd when my other brother died and was brought back to life due to bad surgery in the Hurricane. Weather and my brothers go hand in hand.
What is your guiltiest pleasure ?
Lounging in my PJ’s all day watching true movies with ten ton of junk food.
What do you owe your parents ?
Well my Dad a great deal of money. But what else, love and compassion, but most of all support no matter what, they will be there for me whatever happens and we have a great friendship, for that I know I am lucky.
To whom would you most like to say sorry, and why ?
This was the easiest one to answer, I think in a way that’s sad. Over 10 year ago now my best friend committed suicide, we hadn’t spoken for a few months due to another supposed friend, which I still feel guilty for to this day, I wish she had come to me, I wish we had talked and I had helped her through her pain and that she was here enjoying life with me now.
What or who is the greatest love of your life ?
Kind of an obvious answer but its my little babies and my Hubby Ash. Ashley changed my life in a way I never knew possible, he saved me from hell and I will love him forever no matter what.
What does love feel like ?
It feels like the best butterflies in your stomach but at the same time the greatest fear in the world. I am at my happiest and saddest since being in love.
What was the best kiss of your life ?
My 3rd kiss with Ashley, we kissed for over 3 hours straight, it was beautiful, I had never felt so happy, in love and safe all at the same time.
Which words or phrases do you overuse ?
Funnily I can’t think of any, I asked the hubby and he couldn’t too, I defiantly swear way too much.
What is the worst job you have done ?
Working at Next in the Summer Sale, it was extremely busy and one of the hottest summers on record (pre aircon) I ended up fainting on 4 occasions over the 6 week period I worked.
If you could edit your past what would you change ?
I am afraid I am one of those people that hand on heart says nothing, there are things I wish were not as they were like Grayson’s health, but I believe that all the good and bad things have made me me and brought me to this point in my life, with my Husband, Son and Daughter.
What is the closest you have come to death ?
I personally haven’t thank whoever the powers are. But Grayson stopped breathing several times but firstly when he was 4 months old and I was on my own, it was the most terrifying moment of my life and far to close to death.
What do you consider your greatest achievement ?
Addison and Grayson are the most obvious. Grayson especially is a beautiful amazing little boy, I still have no understanding of how he copes with what life throws at him, but also I am so proud of how I have coped this past 2 1/2 years, I never thought it would be possible.
When did you last cry and why ?
At the moment every other day, hormones, well actually I cry a great deal as a person, I have taught myself it makes me feel better. Lately alot over my concerns with my babies health and also Grayson’s achievements.
How do you relax ?
I love to do girly things like Nails, Facials etc of late my only rest is sleeping.
What single thing would improve the quality of your life ?
Its an awful answer but Money, with a huge capital M. Its looks like Ashley and I may loose our jobs, we don’t own a home and that I find hard, due to Grayson’s ever growing difficulties we will need to have a home adapted to make his life easier but living in rented accommodation means there is no possibility of that, it saddens me as I feel I am failing as a parent.
What is the most important lesson life has taught you ?
That no matter what is thrown at me I am tougher than I ever thought, I never would have believed you if 5 yrs ago you had said I was in debt to the hilt, 2 children, one who is highly disabled yet I am Happy. We shall always get through as my little family has each other.

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Kara Janelle, Plus Size Blogging Mama. Vintage Lover, Interiors Obsessed, Chair Crazed, Collector of Much remembering to Smile as it is the 2nd best thing you can do with your mouth.